A.M.I.S.T.A

You just stood there screaming
fearing no one was listening to you
they say the empty can rattles the most
the sound of your voice must soothe you

hearing only what you want to hear
and knowing only what you’ve heard
you you’re smothered in tragedy
you’re out to save the world

Misery
you insist that the weight of the world
should be on your shoulders
misery
there’s much more to life than what you see
my friend of misery

you still stood there screaming
no one caring about these words you tell
my friend before your voice is gone
one man’s fun is another’s hell
these times are sent to try men’s souls
but something’s wrong with all you see
you you’ll take it on all yourself
remember, misery loves company

you just stood there screaming
my friend of misery

-Metallica- Black Album

I’ve gotten better, My fever went down..no more coughing..so long sneezing..HelI, I feel great… Not!! I’m currently suffering from otitis..A mild ear infection..I cant hear on my left side..So If you see me, dont get offended if I ‘tak/sik tegur’ . I’m also suffering from sleep deprivation..insomnia..Its 5.21am in the morning and I’m wide awake!! I need my sleep.(side effects of Coke,cigarettes and Kopi Tongkat Ali)

Sleeeep sleeep..Oh yeah..I’ve jst started Marketing class..I’d rather study on my own..The lecture is utterly useless..We covered two chapters in 20 minutes..b pegi camping..rindu..

Misery loves company, as pain leads to pleasure..Missing a loved one..down a pill to make me sleep..finally resting in a brief yet eternal slumber…tah papa

Hey, I met a few old friends, Harry,Ann n Zorro..lamak sik jumpa..joli sik ingat dunia..Aku amik gambar lamak lam album Hary(hope you dont mind)..great times..

-Bloody bugger-

(Damien Rice - the blowers daughter)

Aztec Human Stew

Recipe Ingredients

• 6 bell peppers, red or yellow
• 8 ripe tomatoes
• 2 carrots
• 1 pound Human Flesh Classic Strips
• 2 tablespoons vegetable oil
• 2 cups beef stock

Note: in season you may find squash blossoms at your local greengrocer, but beware: these delicate leaves wilt quickly. Remove the stem if it seems tough, and don’t forget to inspect for insects. If you cannot find squash blossoms, substitute edible flower pedals.

Preparation Instructions

• Chop the bell peppers into pieces.
• Pulp the tomatoes into a mash.
• Cut the carrots into ½ inch slices.
• Lightly oil and roll in corn meal 1 pound human meat cut into small pieces.
• Heat over medium heat in skillet 2 tablespoons vegetable oil.
• Sauté the human meat over medium heat 2 minutes.
• Heat to a boil 2 quarts water, and reduce heat to medium low.
• Add in all ingredients the beef stock.
• Simmer and cook in a covered pot for 45 minutes.
• Add squash blossoms (or flower pedals, as available) as garnish.

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I’ve been terribly ill. I dunno how it happened.. A day before I was fine. All of a sudden, my body just gave in..I felt like I was going to die…(yeah rite)..

I’ll continue when I get better..soon

Amista OUT!!! (cough! cough! cough!) sniff

p/s Jgn pegi klinik Nur Fatima(tmn equine). I got over charged last nite. 42 bucks for some pills and a 2 minute diagnosis..After I left, the doctor went to McDonalds. I saw him downing a Big Mac.

I got a new handphone….yea….

murah lagikya….

Strength

I like to help people..I like to smile a lot..I’m easy going..I think therefore I am..I think of happy thoughts..the positive side of life..

Weaknesses

I help people too much, I smile too much(they get irritated)..I critisize too much..I eat too much..I get irritated too much(my expression shows)..some say, I’m too kind..hmm. Lack of confidence, Sensitive? maybe..I worry too much..

Opportunity

We create our own opportunities..its true..We are who we believe we are to be become…I want to be happy..no more no less..

Threats

Time….failure..Anything that worries me…

SWOT analysis as of 19/08/05    4.30am

I told a small lie…(I admit it) But it was for a good cause… I mean, its not like I hurt anyone, nor was it damaging enough to be catasthrophic like to bring someone down and wrecking someones reputation..I did it for a good cause which got me into trouble wen facts are turned around…Example,,

Your friends birthday…you n ur friends are holding a surprise party..so you lie to him/her to lure them away for the actual party just to buy enough time to set the party..SUPRISE!!! suma happy…laugh 2 clap 2..Another example..

You forgot something, say an appointment wid someone..you had a late night youre tired, lack of sleep, then you woke up to a phone ringging asking ur whereabouts and you remembered…you answer saying that ur in the car on the way…while you hurriedly rush to the toilet grabing ur towel…running as fast as you could just to not let that special someone down…that to is considered a white lie..

We do that some times… we all do…to ‘jaga’ feelings org lain… But then again, if these little things are exposed mcm dunia mok kiamat..

I’m not trying to make things more complexed but if humans dont take care of each others feelings…well…were not humans are we? But I guess if things were too logical…then where’s its illogical matter? Theres a good , and theres a bad…

Saying the truth is a good thing..knowing the truth can be cause a devastating effect too.. say, a little boy dying of cancer,, You tell him " Boy, your gonna die in ten days" and eventually break his spirit to live..He dies in three days..But if given the chance say " Boy, your gonna be alright, you can fight it..be strong" he might live. just enough to enjoy his few months of earthly pleasures…A simple harmless white lie..

Trust is important..but certain matters must be taken in considerations too..I mean a lie is still a lie, but what lie is wrong, if its not rationally wrong?

Why is a white lie considered white? Why do they call it a white lie? Because wer’e doing it as a good faith to take care of people’s feelings?

Why am I being emotional about this? Am I wrong? some one tell me…

Hope is like wanting something that you’re not sure you’re gonna get. Hope is begging on your knees waiting for a miracle to happen.. I had hoped.. and I had waited.. giving hope to others when they need it the most.. The search for a sense of belonging..we have all fallen before..never give up hope..

amista out!

p/s shout out to analnarcotic